i'm always curious if the people who i wonder about are wondering just as much about me, or at all

"you can't always get what you want"

but if you try sometimes, you get what you need

its one thing to feel like you're settling for a lesser value. sometimes, you can get by that way, its another thing entirely when you know you're wasting away. that's the thing with time, you're spending it no matter what, but are you getting what you want in return? value is important

my year in pictures

the nihilistic youth

if i had to describe my life at this point, right now, the best word i think would be: empty. but, actually, when i think about it, it isnt my life that is empty, it's me. i can't care about the stuff everyone wants me to care about. i can't learn about the things i'm supposed to learn about. life is like an ocean, knowing how to swim isn't always enough when you are dragged down with a heavy coat of responsibilities. i can barely keep my head up with this coat dragging me down, so i let it go.